school has been kicking my ass lately..

so much to do, :/

*sighhh

so the baile was...

FUN! 

lets start from the beginning: so around 2pm i went to Lupitas house to start getting ready and i did her hair and i did Eli's hair too then i did mine (which i really liked ^.^) and then around 530 we went to this one birthday party for like an hour and a half, then after we went to pick up Maria's friends and let me tell you we were squished in the car ! haha but it was whatever we were in party mode so it didnt even matter haha, we got lost for a bit cause we got off the wrong exit but i saved the night by leading us to the right direction:) when we got there i was excited to dance but FIRST i had to pee haha. Calibre 50 was performing and i didnt really care about them so we were walking around and i see the MAC DADDY that i know and we were talking..we danced a few songs later on that night..the only negative part to this night was i didnt get to see Los Recoditos perform :( for some reason i really like them and i just wanted to see them and hear No Te Quiero Perder, ayyyyyy <3 but i had fun i danced alot, got tossed dipped..but not flipped lol not this time haha..ohhh and i loved what i was wearing i got many many compliments on it (thanks gaby:))) ) i cant waiiit for the next baile MS is gonna be there wooot wooot ! 

today is April 22nd

andddd im feeeling greaaaat <3
things are greaaat with him <3 <3 i really see myself with him , things just get better and better

&& i finally ! have my outfit for the baile , its super cute ! its a romper from bebe and i thank gaby for picking it out cause i would have never given it a try if it wasnt for her, im excited to get all dolled up and go out with lupitaaa and elii no mas ke i haevnt danced to mexican music in foreverrrr hopefully im still oretty good at it haha.

ohhh , and the indoor season it over..we made playoffs but lost the first round..i still scored a nice goal though so its all good haha

blow up and get down.

PARTY PEOPLE .!

they make my nights unforgettable..ilove them

on a much more positive note..

i got my license ! YEAH_YUUUHH .!

very very confused :/

i need to vent :


i just dont get it..like seriously..we were dating for almost 2 months and asi de la nada you're just gonna disappear. i guess i see what kinda of guy you really were..and to think that in the beginning i had nothing for you..no feeelings cause i didn't think you were what i wanted..you weren't living up to my expectations or my standards but i gave you a chance y me deje caer...in the end i fell for you and i fell hard..only to see that you were gonna pull some bs like this...i cant believe i was this stupid..i still dont get it..me siento desesperada no se ke hacer...

i am SO PARANOID..

maaaaan , i am seriously over thinking everything..i have a reason to though..im so scared...ughhhh im so stupiiiiiddddd fccckkkk .!

:,(

April 23

the date of the baile de larry hernandez, banda el recodo, and los recoditos...its next saturday and i still have NOTHING to wear. Im thinking of going super simple nothing fancy..im not planning to wear heels (i get tired to fast and you cant dance that well and id rather not be biiitchen the whole night about my feet) and i think ima just wear some shorts..and a simple top..my hair.? hmmm maybe a ponytail like a messy one or down curled with a nice headband...yeah this baile im going for CUTE&&SIMPLE.

i found the dress. !!

so for my lovely cousins wedding in June i have been asked to be a madrina de ramo natural :) i was very happy when she asked me i felttt super special , she told me that the color of the dress has to be like a chocolate brown , to match the ceremony i guess..i have no problemmm with brown. I knew when she asked me i had to get it made by mi madrina Letyyyy. so my search began to find a dress that i wanted to duplicate for that date. After a longggg search i found it ! its not gonna be as revealing as this one, it will be more covered on top and it will still be backless but it wont stoop so low..oh and it wont show my side stomach either and i would want a more tighter fitt but it will have the same basic style as this one just in BROWN. im excited :DDDD

ill have it one day , just not today.

i thought it could have been a good thing. i gave you a chance for a reason , so i can feel how it is to be missed , how it feels to be loved , cared for , desired. I want to feel what i once felt for someone. I want those butterflies back, i want to see you and have a smile from ear to ear. I want to glow with your presence &&my eyes to light up with love. I want to melt in your arms and feel those fireworks with a kiss. I have only felt that once , and let me tell you ohhh, was it the nicest feeling ever. One day i know ill have it and it will be real , but as of right now i know that YOU are not it. i deserve more. i will have more.

Berkeley Marina

it was such a nice day today , it was so fressshhh .! riding bikes with joey and listening to music felt so niiiceee i recommend it to anybody, it really clears your mind and its super relaxing. this is the afternoon , instagramed.

i absolutely love this picture.

mis TOMS.

Miss Sasha Jackson.

today i went to her viewing and it felt so unreal. i couldnt believe that a friend of mine had passed...seeing her in that resting so soundly..no emotion..no nothing was very difficult. It hadnt hit me yet until today and I cried so much. She was such an outgoing girl who would light up a room when she would walk in, she was always real with people and she would never settle for anything less than the best. she never found love, she never got to get married, she never had childern, she never even reached the age of 21. Her life was taken so suddenly, God had a reason for taking her...her place is in heaven now.
Its so unreal because not even a month ago she came to visit me and gaby at work. it was so great seeing her i told her how ive missed her and hadnt seen her in forever. When she said bye she said that i should go visit her at work cause "were practically neighbors" :) i never did get a chance to go visit her :/
She was such a diva, and she knew it, her jokes were super funny class didnt feel the same without her. Damn, my high school friend just passed and its still hard to believe, she was taking way too young. My prayers go out to her family, she is in a better place now watching over us and smiling because she sees what an impact she made on people and how truly missed she is <3 rip sasha<3

my TOMS =)

<3

Cuantas cosas an pasado corazon

pero hasta ya donde tu te encuentres te aahhh de llegar mi olvido cuando sientas las ganas de verme te areprientas de averme dejado ese dia sin poder hacer nadaa , notaras ke mi olvido a llegado...i love that song..i was just listening to it so i decided to sing it on m blog haha

School is a few days away, i don't know how i feel about it. ughhhh ima really buckle down though and get my shit straight its gonna be a tough semester but i can definitely do it. Hopefully its interesting, my classes i mean.

getting off that subject and on a serious note ive been thinking and i feel like i have to be more religous, like go to church more often and everything bacause God has blessed me with so much and im thankful for it i really am , <3

my favorite pictures of this past year..

diego babyyy

we dont give a fckk about NO HO :)

when we got back together :) lol

drunk belly dancing with gaby dying on the right haha

bros graddd

bellas

loveee

my lovely friendsss

bien pedaaaas

the most fun soccer team everr

sums up las damaz de negro lol

halloween 2010

cousinss

bailando

lupe:)

CUERRRVOOOO

last night of 2010

2010 in a nutshell :)

Hmmm how was my 2010?? , umm I will say it was the bomb! Haha I truly enjoyed this year, thanks to my family and my friends..I'm not going to forget all those bailes I went to con mis damas,becoming champions 3 times! Twice with Panthers and once with Pumas Yee! So many good times I can't even mention them all that'd be too difficult haha..oh and I'll especially remember when I got toooo drunk at el baile de Los tucanes hahaha Omg I drank way too much! Y la caiida heard around the world cuando me di el madraso con Lupita haha..my year was made super special because of my girls no lie, Lupita , Jessika , Chely , Mari, Natalie, and Gaby! Without those girls I don't know what I'd do! Haha..this year I did become super paisa I wil admit but hey I finally found un ambiente that feels good to be around:) besides raves...Ohhh the raves!! Omg! Halloween!! Hahaha I was gone! I was lady gaga AGAIN ! Lol but I had a fantastic night..and there's an epic ass video to forever look back on:) oh and this year I got a job! Haha abercrombie & Fitch model haaaay! Besides my party lifestyle that has recently gotten outta control in a good way;) my mommy finally had her dream come true of opening her very own beauty salon..! So proud of her I love my mommy..my brothers graduated! Which totally motivated me to do good in school..but with all good things comes drama haha no year is ever drama free..I dealt with a very tough breakk upp:/ but I picked myself up and moved on:) this year I experienced love.(I think) haha and what it's like to lose it..but i see it as a good thing because now I'm more aware of what I want from the other person and i won't make the same mistake again. OHHH shitt! NO-HO...spring break in LA was bombbb omg drunk every fcking nighttt with the no-ho crew was so dope..couldnt ever ask for a better group of people to spend a weekend in LA with. I couldnt ask for a better year, now lets see what 2011 brings, a wiiiwiii!!