school has been kicking my ass lately..

so much to do, :/

*sighhh

so the baile was...

FUN! 

lets start from the beginning: so around 2pm i went to Lupitas house to start getting ready and i did her hair and i did Eli's hair too then i did mine (which i really liked ^.^) and then around 530 we went to this one birthday party for like an hour and a half, then after we went to pick up Maria's friends and let me tell you we were squished in the car ! haha but it was whatever we were in party mode so it didnt even matter haha, we got lost for a bit cause we got off the wrong exit but i saved the night by leading us to the right direction:) when we got there i was excited to dance but FIRST i had to pee haha. Calibre 50 was performing and i didnt really care about them so we were walking around and i see the MAC DADDY that i know and we were talking..we danced a few songs later on that night..the only negative part to this night was i didnt get to see Los Recoditos perform :( for some reason i really like them and i just wanted to see them and hear No Te Quiero Perder, ayyyyyy <3 but i had fun i danced alot, got tossed dipped..but not flipped lol not this time haha..ohhh and i loved what i was wearing i got many many compliments on it (thanks gaby:))) ) i cant waiiit for the next baile MS is gonna be there wooot wooot ! 

today is April 22nd

andddd im feeeling greaaaat <3
things are greaaat with him <3 <3 i really see myself with him , things just get better and better

&& i finally ! have my outfit for the baile , its super cute ! its a romper from bebe and i thank gaby for picking it out cause i would have never given it a try if it wasnt for her, im excited to get all dolled up and go out with lupitaaa and elii no mas ke i haevnt danced to mexican music in foreverrrr hopefully im still oretty good at it haha.

ohhh , and the indoor season it over..we made playoffs but lost the first round..i still scored a nice goal though so its all good haha

blow up and get down.

PARTY PEOPLE .!

they make my nights unforgettable..ilove them

on a much more positive note..

i got my license ! YEAH_YUUUHH .!

very very confused :/

i need to vent :


i just dont get it..like seriously..we were dating for almost 2 months and asi de la nada you're just gonna disappear. i guess i see what kinda of guy you really were..and to think that in the beginning i had nothing for you..no feeelings cause i didn't think you were what i wanted..you weren't living up to my expectations or my standards but i gave you a chance y me deje caer...in the end i fell for you and i fell hard..only to see that you were gonna pull some bs like this...i cant believe i was this stupid..i still dont get it..me siento desesperada no se ke hacer...

i am SO PARANOID..

maaaaan , i am seriously over thinking everything..i have a reason to though..im so scared...ughhhh im so stupiiiiiddddd fccckkkk .!

:,(

April 23

the date of the baile de larry hernandez, banda el recodo, and los recoditos...its next saturday and i still have NOTHING to wear. Im thinking of going super simple nothing fancy..im not planning to wear heels (i get tired to fast and you cant dance that well and id rather not be biiitchen the whole night about my feet) and i think ima just wear some shorts..and a simple top..my hair.? hmmm maybe a ponytail like a messy one or down curled with a nice headband...yeah this baile im going for CUTE&&SIMPLE.

i found the dress. !!

so for my lovely cousins wedding in June i have been asked to be a madrina de ramo natural :) i was very happy when she asked me i felttt super special , she told me that the color of the dress has to be like a chocolate brown , to match the ceremony i guess..i have no problemmm with brown. I knew when she asked me i had to get it made by mi madrina Letyyyy. so my search began to find a dress that i wanted to duplicate for that date. After a longggg search i found it ! its not gonna be as revealing as this one, it will be more covered on top and it will still be backless but it wont stoop so low..oh and it wont show my side stomach either and i would want a more tighter fitt but it will have the same basic style as this one just in BROWN. im excited :DDDD

ill have it one day , just not today.

i thought it could have been a good thing. i gave you a chance for a reason , so i can feel how it is to be missed , how it feels to be loved , cared for , desired. I want to feel what i once felt for someone. I want those butterflies back, i want to see you and have a smile from ear to ear. I want to glow with your presence &&my eyes to light up with love. I want to melt in your arms and feel those fireworks with a kiss. I have only felt that once , and let me tell you ohhh, was it the nicest feeling ever. One day i know ill have it and it will be real , but as of right now i know that YOU are not it. i deserve more. i will have more.

Berkeley Marina

it was such a nice day today , it was so fressshhh .! riding bikes with joey and listening to music felt so niiiceee i recommend it to anybody, it really clears your mind and its super relaxing. this is the afternoon , instagramed.

i absolutely love this picture.

mis TOMS.