ill have it one day , just not today.

i thought it could have been a good thing. i gave you a chance for a reason , so i can feel how it is to be missed , how it feels to be loved , cared for , desired. I want to feel what i once felt for someone. I want those butterflies back, i want to see you and have a smile from ear to ear. I want to glow with your presence &&my eyes to light up with love. I want to melt in your arms and feel those fireworks with a kiss. I have only felt that once , and let me tell you ohhh, was it the nicest feeling ever. One day i know ill have it and it will be real , but as of right now i know that YOU are not it. i deserve more. i will have more.

Berkeley Marina

it was such a nice day today , it was so fressshhh .! riding bikes with joey and listening to music felt so niiiceee i recommend it to anybody, it really clears your mind and its super relaxing. this is the afternoon , instagramed.

i absolutely love this picture.

mis TOMS.

Miss Sasha Jackson.

today i went to her viewing and it felt so unreal. i couldnt believe that a friend of mine had passed...seeing her in that resting so soundly..no emotion..no nothing was very difficult. It hadnt hit me yet until today and I cried so much. She was such an outgoing girl who would light up a room when she would walk in, she was always real with people and she would never settle for anything less than the best. she never found love, she never got to get married, she never had childern, she never even reached the age of 21. Her life was taken so suddenly, God had a reason for taking her...her place is in heaven now.
Its so unreal because not even a month ago she came to visit me and gaby at work. it was so great seeing her i told her how ive missed her and hadnt seen her in forever. When she said bye she said that i should go visit her at work cause "were practically neighbors" :) i never did get a chance to go visit her :/
She was such a diva, and she knew it, her jokes were super funny class didnt feel the same without her. Damn, my high school friend just passed and its still hard to believe, she was taking way too young. My prayers go out to her family, she is in a better place now watching over us and smiling because she sees what an impact she made on people and how truly missed she is <3 rip sasha<3

my TOMS =)

<3

Cuantas cosas an pasado corazon

pero hasta ya donde tu te encuentres te aahhh de llegar mi olvido cuando sientas las ganas de verme te areprientas de averme dejado ese dia sin poder hacer nadaa , notaras ke mi olvido a llegado...i love that song..i was just listening to it so i decided to sing it on m blog haha

School is a few days away, i don't know how i feel about it. ughhhh ima really buckle down though and get my shit straight its gonna be a tough semester but i can definitely do it. Hopefully its interesting, my classes i mean.

getting off that subject and on a serious note ive been thinking and i feel like i have to be more religous, like go to church more often and everything bacause God has blessed me with so much and im thankful for it i really am , <3

my favorite pictures of this past year..

diego babyyy

we dont give a fckk about NO HO :)

when we got back together :) lol

drunk belly dancing with gaby dying on the right haha

bros graddd

bellas

loveee

my lovely friendsss

bien pedaaaas

the most fun soccer team everr

sums up las damaz de negro lol

halloween 2010

cousinss

bailando

lupe:)

CUERRRVOOOO

last night of 2010

2010 in a nutshell :)

Hmmm how was my 2010?? , umm I will say it was the bomb! Haha I truly enjoyed this year, thanks to my family and my friends..I'm not going to forget all those bailes I went to con mis damas,becoming champions 3 times! Twice with Panthers and once with Pumas Yee! So many good times I can't even mention them all that'd be too difficult haha..oh and I'll especially remember when I got toooo drunk at el baile de Los tucanes hahaha Omg I drank way too much! Y la caiida heard around the world cuando me di el madraso con Lupita haha..my year was made super special because of my girls no lie, Lupita , Jessika , Chely , Mari, Natalie, and Gaby! Without those girls I don't know what I'd do! Haha..this year I did become super paisa I wil admit but hey I finally found un ambiente that feels good to be around:) besides raves...Ohhh the raves!! Omg! Halloween!! Hahaha I was gone! I was lady gaga AGAIN ! Lol but I had a fantastic night..and there's an epic ass video to forever look back on:) oh and this year I got a job! Haha abercrombie & Fitch model haaaay! Besides my party lifestyle that has recently gotten outta control in a good way;) my mommy finally had her dream come true of opening her very own beauty salon..! So proud of her I love my mommy..my brothers graduated! Which totally motivated me to do good in school..but with all good things comes drama haha no year is ever drama free..I dealt with a very tough breakk upp:/ but I picked myself up and moved on:) this year I experienced love.(I think) haha and what it's like to lose it..but i see it as a good thing because now I'm more aware of what I want from the other person and i won't make the same mistake again. OHHH shitt! NO-HO...spring break in LA was bombbb omg drunk every fcking nighttt with the no-ho crew was so dope..couldnt ever ask for a better group of people to spend a weekend in LA with. I couldnt ask for a better year, now lets see what 2011 brings, a wiiiwiii!!