April 23

the date of the baile de larry hernandez, banda el recodo, and los recoditos...its next saturday and i still have NOTHING to wear. Im thinking of going super simple nothing fancy..im not planning to wear heels (i get tired to fast and you cant dance that well and id rather not be biiitchen the whole night about my feet) and i think ima just wear some shorts..and a simple top..my hair.? hmmm maybe a ponytail like a messy one or down curled with a nice headband...yeah this baile im going for CUTE&&SIMPLE.

i found the dress. !!

so for my lovely cousins wedding in June i have been asked to be a madrina de ramo natural :) i was very happy when she asked me i felttt super special , she told me that the color of the dress has to be like a chocolate brown , to match the ceremony i guess..i have no problemmm with brown. I knew when she asked me i had to get it made by mi madrina Letyyyy. so my search began to find a dress that i wanted to duplicate for that date. After a longggg search i found it ! its not gonna be as revealing as this one, it will be more covered on top and it will still be backless but it wont stoop so low..oh and it wont show my side stomach either and i would want a more tighter fitt but it will have the same basic style as this one just in BROWN. im excited :DDDD

ill have it one day , just not today.

i thought it could have been a good thing. i gave you a chance for a reason , so i can feel how it is to be missed , how it feels to be loved , cared for , desired. I want to feel what i once felt for someone. I want those butterflies back, i want to see you and have a smile from ear to ear. I want to glow with your presence &&my eyes to light up with love. I want to melt in your arms and feel those fireworks with a kiss. I have only felt that once , and let me tell you ohhh, was it the nicest feeling ever. One day i know ill have it and it will be real , but as of right now i know that YOU are not it. i deserve more. i will have more.

Berkeley Marina

it was such a nice day today , it was so fressshhh .! riding bikes with joey and listening to music felt so niiiceee i recommend it to anybody, it really clears your mind and its super relaxing. this is the afternoon , instagramed.

i absolutely love this picture.

mis TOMS.

Miss Sasha Jackson.

today i went to her viewing and it felt so unreal. i couldnt believe that a friend of mine had passed...seeing her in that resting so soundly..no emotion..no nothing was very difficult. It hadnt hit me yet until today and I cried so much. She was such an outgoing girl who would light up a room when she would walk in, she was always real with people and she would never settle for anything less than the best. she never found love, she never got to get married, she never had childern, she never even reached the age of 21. Her life was taken so suddenly, God had a reason for taking her...her place is in heaven now.
Its so unreal because not even a month ago she came to visit me and gaby at work. it was so great seeing her i told her how ive missed her and hadnt seen her in forever. When she said bye she said that i should go visit her at work cause "were practically neighbors" :) i never did get a chance to go visit her :/
She was such a diva, and she knew it, her jokes were super funny class didnt feel the same without her. Damn, my high school friend just passed and its still hard to believe, she was taking way too young. My prayers go out to her family, she is in a better place now watching over us and smiling because she sees what an impact she made on people and how truly missed she is <3 rip sasha<3

my TOMS =)

<3

Cuantas cosas an pasado corazon

pero hasta ya donde tu te encuentres te aahhh de llegar mi olvido cuando sientas las ganas de verme te areprientas de averme dejado ese dia sin poder hacer nadaa , notaras ke mi olvido a llegado...i love that song..i was just listening to it so i decided to sing it on m blog haha

School is a few days away, i don't know how i feel about it. ughhhh ima really buckle down though and get my shit straight its gonna be a tough semester but i can definitely do it. Hopefully its interesting, my classes i mean.

getting off that subject and on a serious note ive been thinking and i feel like i have to be more religous, like go to church more often and everything bacause God has blessed me with so much and im thankful for it i really am , <3