him.

yesterday i had good conversation with Michelle.we talked about our recent breakups and she asked me "do you still think about him?" I had to think about that question for a little bit not because i didnt know the answer but because I realized that I think about him a lot. I honestly can say that he had my heart. I cared about him so much and I hate how the relationship ended because it was over stupid issues we couldn't seem to handle anymore. I hate that we couldn't remain friends, maybe it was too dumb of us to try to be friends so soon after a break up. whatever the case was i lost a good companionship. he was the first guy i can honestly say that i really really cared for and was willing to do anything for but i guess he never really saw that in me. i am over him i do not see us getting back together (at least not now) because what happened is something we would both have to move on from and grow from it before we can even think about each other in that way once again. i may be stupid for putting my situation on blast like this but i really don't care i felt like i had to write it. the song i related to so much during this whole thing and i felt really spoke to me was "lejos estamos mejor" by Motel. that song made me cry so much because i knew that it was saying everything i was thinking and i hated to admit it. he was the first guy i cared for so much, the guy that made so happy but so sad at times, but above all my first love.