this is a mans world. but it would be nothing without me.

I asked you to never leave me

and what did you do?

You didn't look back

I asked you to love me forever

and for you forever never came

I asked you to never break my heart

and what did you do?

you shattered it

I trusted you, I gave you everything

and what did you give me?

The worst scars that even my heart

cannot seem to repair

oh my oh my.

i no longer miss you i no longer care for you i no longer love you i no longer think about you, your nothing to me, finally you are nobody to me, and im so fcking happy about that.

im dermal.

oooh la la ;)

i want something like this

thinking too much, the point is to not think..

I feel very content with my life right now. I am going to school 100% sure what i want to do with my life. I have great friends, my family is amazing, everything is just going great. recently i started to get to know this guy lets refer to him as "paisa" haha. well hes a really nice guy, hes fun, loud, really really funny, and i love his presence it just puts you in a very good mood. Well i have been texting him alot and he sees me every once in while when he can. I know i had said that i wouldnt get into a relationship so quickly after my last one but its been about 4 months? i thinkk..not too long but I feel its long enough only because he never crosses my mind and i just have no feelings for the past.,I am going to stay single however much longer because I feel itll be good for me to enjoy the single life. and belieeveee me i have been enjoying it soo much. I am actually stating to agree with my parents when they say "i go out too much" haha cause i do!... but anyways back to the paisa..hes a nice guy and everything and he really really likes me (or so he tells me all the time) and you know i like him too just not to the extent he likes me. The one guy i wish I had almost seems impossible. isnt long distance such a bummer?! Ive always had immense feelings for this guy and he was even part of the reason my other relationship didnt work out, haha hes just that amazing to mee. he says he feels the same i just wish he would show it, im not trying to persure a relationship but if it happens it happens, or ill just wait for him=)

cause he is that damn worth it!

college, college, college...

Today i spoke to a my counselor and i spoke to her about transferring, recently i have been thinking of going to Arizona state. I looked into the school more and they offer great things for students who want to a career in the field of education. When I heard they offered these things I got very excited! the school also looks very nice and it wouldnt be a bad idea to go there. Tution would cost alot since I am an out of state student but school is expensive anyways might as well milk it for all its worth haha. My counselor said that im looking good with all my classes and im right on track. Im hoping that maybe next fall i will already be thinking about transferring and ASU will be my first choice. So i really gotta focus focus focus if i want to go to this school! Omg if i were to go it'd be awesome, not only will i feel that im in a great school considering what I want to study but it wont hurt that he will go there as well :)

mi hermano

my brother went to New York to chase his dream of becoming a famous photograher which im sure it will come true! cause hes amazinggg:) i miss him alot though the house is too lonely without him :(